Yayas

Self-Love Songs

Demos (lyrics below)

Resumen biográfico

Jo Garrity (Yayas) es músico, artista audiovisual, cineasta y performer, y trabaja en los ámbitos de la música, el A/V en directo, el cine y el teatro. Su práctica combina técnicas analógicas y digitales para explorar la materialidad y la experiencia corporal.

Comenzó a hacer música como Yayas dentro de la tradición del bedroom pop: íntima, autodidacta y emocionalmente cruda. Enraizado en la experimentación vocal y sonora, el propio nombre proviene del que él y su hermano gemelo idéntico usaban entre ellos hasta los seis años, un rastro que sigue informando el diálogo interno de su obra. Ese espíritu continúa en Self-Love Songs, su primer LP y performance A/V en directo actualmente en desarrollo, que combina pop-rock, IDM y ambient para reflexionar sobre el duelo, la resiliencia y la expresión íntima a través de la síntesis modular de audio y vídeo.

Con formación en montaje de largometrajes en Pixar Animation Studios —incluyendo su colaboración en Inside Out—, sus raíces están en la narrativa emocionalmente impactante y de experiencia colectiva. Su cortometraje Twinsburg, una oda tragicómica a la gemelaridad idéntica, se proyectó en más de 50 festivales, ganó 10 premios y apareció en el New York Times. Trabajó como editor principal y ayudante de dirección en Watergate (dir. Charles Ferguson), seleccionado por la Berlinale, Telluride y NYFF. Actualmente desarrolla The Pepsi-Cola Addict, un largometraje independiente que se producirá en España.

Sus colaboraciones audiovisuales incluyen a la banda canadiense de pop-rock Alvvays, con quienes realizó el diseño audiovisual en directo durante sus giras por Reino Unido y Norteamérica. Sus visuales también han sido encargados por Crumb y DJ Holographic. Crea performances inmersivas y transdisciplinares, entre ellas The Bluff Education Hour, radioteatros improvisados captados en audio espacial, y la escenografía A/V en directo para la obra Sunday Night at Jane's de Emily Powers en el Hollywood Fringe.

Lyrics

I Believe

I believe we can laugh
no matter who’s around
I believe our lives are empty
without the sound
I believe we can love the player
beyond the role
I believe our joy is nothing
that we stole

Who said you had to be 
ready for anything
Took us by surprise
until the end
Apologize for nothing
see you again
This time forever baby
as my friend

I believe I believe in believing
in anything but fear
I believe sometimes you’re smearing
and other times you’re the queer
I believe we can give up everything
all the shame
I believe we danced before
we even had these names

Oh yeah ’cause

What’s it even mean
showing up late to a party named 
Eternity 
We’re right on time 
impeccably
Sin was a hand-me-down
a heavy one that you wore
But oh look it’s Love 
running coatcheck
for fucking free at the door

See you on the floor

I believe in an unbelievable 
smile
I believe we already went 
the extra mile
I believe it’s borrowed time
so stay a while
I believe baby
I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe

Certainty

Anybody know everybody knows
Certainty like the day you were born

Nothing to second-guess here
it’s already been done
You already run around the room
following the sun

Certainty like a Sunday morn’

’cause illusions never belonged to us
just some flowers we picked
So as I loosen my grip
truth’s a scent that never changed 
I could never forget

Certainty like the day you were born

As if you were Henry Fonda 
in a room full of cynics
Deliberating knives and tickets 
to baseball games getting rained on
They’re all full of Love

Certainty like a Sunday morn’
everybody knows anybody know

Alright

Just show me
just gimme some kind of sign
That you’re
alright
Show me that you’re
I'm gonna keep dancing 
over here
Open arms when you 
let go of the pride and fear
Just gimme some kind of sign
Oh our darlings
just give ’em some kind of
Just gimme some kind of sign
So when you’re feeling blue
just gimme some kind of sign
There’s just one thing
that you should do
Just gimme some kind of sign
I'm gonna keep dancing 
over here
Oh oh
Open arms when you 
let go of the pride and fear
Show me that you’re
Our darlings
Show me
Alright
Just give ’em some kind of
Just gimme some kind of sign
Alright

Deliver Me

Do you think you could deliver me
box all of me up
Take me away from here
it's never far enough

Ain’t waiting on a miracle
just trying to make some luck
Now how about you big stuff
what’d you say your name was

You think you could deliver me
wouldn’t be the first
But show me the man with a savior complex
pointed at himself

And deliver me
all of me up
Take me away from here
far enough

Only Visiting

Was only visiting but the thing is
in running from disaster
Getting clotheslined by an Ever After
plans run another way

Farce of all the slamming doors
what you thought was yours
That ace up your sleeve
showing hearts through a cotton blend and

Submission of the little ego
night sweats and hedging bets
And abdicating agency
to the blame of others’ circumstance

It’s only visiting
only visiting

This time a round-
trip into the ground
And the siblings, children
ante up or fold ’em down

The House it always
always wins
It’s only visiting
only visiting

It’s only visiting
only visiting
Only visiting

Only visiting
only visiting

Do it all again anyhow

Rock n Go

Do you remember with the rock n go
it was touch n go
Remember dad made it around the block
before he stopped

Three boys in the back seat
seeing how still they could keep
For a man who just
needed to weep

With the rock n go
with the rock n go
It was touch n go
with the rock n go

With the rock
with the rock

With the man who just
needed to weep

Another Day

When the grievances
are Whac-a-Mole
When it ain’t one thing
but a cloud of six you can’t control
When you see how devoted they are
to placing their blame
When they refuse listening
compromise or accountability
Save your breath
for another day
When the war ain’t so damn appealing 
to 'em anyway
Hoo oo oo hoo oo hoo oo
hoo oo oo hoo oo hoo oo

Unfold

Unfold the lonely
unfold the time to eat
Unfold the delete
unfold the silence
Unfold the best faith
unfold the heavy
Unfold the perceived judgement
unfold the asking
Unfold the flowers on the train
unfold the weary
Unfold the unfolded loving
unfold the lonely

Occupy

In a Friday night bookshop
the deathly stalk in his eyes
muttering past his future wife
gonna be here for a while

He’s not your boy
or your friend
though he tries
to act like it

And we all want 
in
with the dread
of ever getting out again

I wish we could smile about
the time
left
the time left
before 
we meet again

How’s it going

And how’s it going
again
again
again
again
again

Hold

And if the only way
to hold
was give 
away

Ah ah ah
ah ah oh

And if receiving
we’d been deceiving
’cause losing’s 
illusion

Ah ah ah

La da da
da da da

Ah ah ah
ah ah oh

Call for Love

I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
Idols I made
to separate

I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear the fear
it’s a call for love
Idols I made
to separate

I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
Idols you made
to separate

I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
I don’t fear your fear
it’s a call for love
Idols you made
to separate

I don’t fear your
fear your
fear

Call for love

Night Shoots

David Lean
or whoever’s conducting these dreams
If you please
what’s this scene even mean
I thought act three
ended pages and pages before
Yet here I am
yet again 
At the station
sweating in frustration
Trying to catch all these trains
back to the one 
Who continues 
to elude
Yes, Coward gave me the latest pages 
but
How many night shoots
does this even need
I thought the Encounter was Brief
man you’re dreaming
In spite of everything that
every critic said
So about my character motivation
here at the station
There’s still time 
on track nine
But I’m in my bed
okay
Do it again

Your Unwinnable War

It’s your unwinnable war

There’s your unwinnable war again
there’s the door again

There’s your unwinnable war again
what’s the score again
Do you know

I think if you wanted Peace
you’d understand you’re the only one
To decide if you’re a victim or not
or run and hide
Don’t decide
for now

There’s your unwinnable war again
there’s the door again
Oh

There’s your unwinnable war again
what’s the score again
Do you know

Forgiveness
you give for yourself
Before anybody else
or else

It’s your unwinnable war

Defenses Down

Most your life
you’ve been pushed around
Love or war
the same old sound

What happens when
it comes around
Unconditional
defenses down

You can fight 
yourself
And it’ll still 
be around

Got you on the ropes you wove
oh shit what now

Thought you could

Fight or flight
kill the night
Ride or die
seek or hide

When you can’t

Place your blame
what a shame
A rose by any other name
plays no game

Thought we could

Kick and scream
flee the scene
Irish goodbye in a mirror
buried in a dream

But what happens when

Unconditional
defenses down

Landfill

And if this was all
the time left
Would you need a bag 
for regrets

Other names for 
resentment
It’s only ten cents
paper or plastic

But we are still here
and this is real
And I can feel
growing in a landfill

My healing
is a feeling
Show the sun
it’s wonderful

A Capella

What do you call the opposite
of facing the music
A cop-out-
apella

Written across a college sweater
that you wear as you step into
A time machine that 
rips through your youth

Now in a shade of oblivious blue
you keep up the tune
Of a lullaby you made
just to get by

In a waking dream
that this is all it can be
And with the corners of your heart
kept in the dark

And it’s as much for me
and what created me
when I sing
I could never forsake you

When every lesson
about loving me
Brother son 
lover bride

It’s all the same
it’s a beautiful
Rhyming 
scheme

Right Time

At the right time
Oh
Yes at the right time
Oh
You’re at the right time
You’re at the right time
You’re at the right time
You’re at the

You’re at the right time
The right time
You’re at the right time

Deliver Me (Reprise)

Miracle
some luck
Savior
big stuff

And if you could
give me a reason 
To believe 
you wouldn't use it against me

First bitch you make 
is yourself

So what the hell
buddy you might as well
Go ahead and see
if maybe you could

Deliver me
all of me up
Take me away from here
far enough

Deliver me
all of me
Away
enough

Whatever your name was

Passed Life

Well in a 
passed life
You let 
fear decide
And doubt 
hide
And anger ride 
to the final mile

In a passed life
I don’t mean a past life
I mean the one passing by
for a little while

I Believe (Reprise)

I believe we can laugh
no matter who’s around
I believe our lives are empty
without the sound
I believe we can love the player
beyond the role
I believe our joy is nothing
that we stole

Who said you had to be 
ready for anything
Took us by surprise
until the end
Apologize for nothing
see you again
This time forever baby
as my friend

I believe I believe in believing
in anything but fear
I believe sometimes you’re smearing
and other times you’re the queer
I believe we can give up everything
all the shame
I believe we danced before
we even had these names

Oh yeah ’cause

What’s it even mean
showing up late to a party named 
Eternity 
We’re right on time 
impeccably
Sin was a hand-me-down
a heavy one that you wore
But oh look it’s Love 
running coatcheck
for fucking free at the door

See you on the floor

I believe in an unbelievable 
smile
I believe we already went 
the extra mile
I believe it’s borrowed time
so stay a while
I believe baby
I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe